Monthly Archives: September 2010
No, really, I do. Oh, not for all those other reasons. I mean, I get why people are still angry and the remembrances thing. I don’t get the blatant racism cloaked in patriotism thing, but the other stuff, that i get.
But, back to me. All me, all the time. I mean, come on, there’s a certain element of narcissism to doing a blog. A little self importance even.
But enough with the avoidance, the digressions.
I hate 9/11 because it stole my mom’s fucking thunder.
On Labor Day 2001, one week before the shitstorm that socially, politically and literally altered America’s landscape indefinitely, my mom died. She was an amazing and caring and loving and hardworking and, well, to be honest, incredibly sarcastic woman. She was allowed about one week of remembrance before chicken little’s sky came-a-fallin’ and people had other shit to worry about.
That is why I hate 9/11.
Bullshit politics, asshole religion and retarded ideology pushed my mom’s death to the back burner.
It also doesn’t help that every year’s hoopla surrounding the impending date brings to mind my own loss. How my own life’s course took a crazy swing. How much has changed in regards to lifestyle and outlook and future.
September of 2001.
Of course, I haven’t devoted trillions of dollars and countless deaths to a war in her name. So I guess I got that going for me.
I seriously love bouldering. Sometimes you’re lucky enough to find something that just feels right. Climbing has been the kind of activity one finds and immediately feels good about.
The need to slow down and focus on a problem. The necessity of relaxing yourself, controlling your movements, playing the chess moves out in your head. These are the aspects that appeal to me, that work with my personality.
I used to climb almost every day. Inside, outside, near and far. But I allowed the bad parts of my life associated with climbing to overshadow the joy I found in the good. I was suddenly climbing alone and incapable of focusing or finding enjoyment.
Well, that sucks. I like climbing. A lot.
Thanks to the help of some close friends in Indiana, I got back into it this last winter. Unfortunately, I came back here to RI. Back to where every rock brings back painful memories, raw emotions. And I stopped again.
But the woods in fall have their pull, drawing you in. The beautiful cool early evenings where the light trickles in through the changing leaves just right. The bugs have receded along with the humidity. The soft footfalls on pine needles.
All the good parts of autumn in New England.
Being next door to Lincoln Woods State Park definitely helps. The place is like having an outdoor gym with it’s tightly packed, easily walked boulder layout. It’s supposedly been a top bouldering spot since the 1930’s.
Although Lincoln Woods can be quite a busy and loud city park, it’s pretty easy on a weekday evening to find a quiet and solitary boulder to set up and scramble a bit without too much interference or curious looky-loos. It is also easy to encounter other climbers, if one was so inclined. Unfortunately, I am not so socially adventurous. But, if you see me, feel free to say hello. I’m house broken (mostly), have had all my shots (once, long ago), and don’t bite (not very hard anyway; sensitive teeth lately).